Motivation To Get Moving

In 2015 I successfully dropped 27lbs. In my workplace we made our own competition. We would all weigh in on the same day, if you maintained you were fine, if you gained anything you paid $5.00 for the week, and at the end of the competition biggest loser (most pounds lost) takes home the money pot.I came in third place, but I had additional motivation to get moving and dropping the pounds. My brother was getting married and I wanted to look good. I had a few support systems in place too. Made a group chat with my friends and every week we would check in.Fast forward to 2017 and I've gained the 27lbs back and then some. Currently I weigh 199.4 pounds. For me its not just the numbers that matter. I know I want to be a source of motivation for those around me, and well yesterday I had a conversation with my mom and it pushed me to get moving again today.She was telling me how she believed I eat healthy and that I just needed to go back to the gym. For the most part I sometimes eat healthy, but we order out so much and sometimes I order anything but a salad. So after the conversation with my mom I felt guilty. I felt like I was lying to her.I decided I need to be consistent, dedicated and rearrange my schedule to fit my activities. Between 2015 and today I know I've experienced burn out from doing too much for everyone else and not taking care of myself. And if you think putting your self first is selfish vs is being selfless, check out this podcast.I believe we put so much emphasis on the numbers that we forget to analyze the way we feel. I know our body talks, for example if I eat something that is high in sodium, I'll eventually get a headache and need a nap. Generally, when my mom cooks, its not salty because she has medical issues and doesn't cook with much salt.Often I wonder just how "healthy"  Haitian food ranks. Our meals consist of lots of rice and sides include legumes, cooked veggies and meat. I think if the portion sizes were different it wouldn't be so bad. We use lots of spices in our cooking.So today is a new day, and I've hit reset. No more stress binge eating and time to quit lying to not only my mother but myself too. This is after I'd drop the 27lbs at my brothers wedding. When I go through my facebook photos the number of full body shots go down so clearly I know whats happening. Most of us know what to do to drop weight and be healthy. The difficulty is discipline and being truthful to ones self.Today I did 30 min of cardio on the treadmill at a incline of 3.5 and a speed of 3.4. It was more like speed walking and I did break out a little sweat. While on the treadmill the only thought that kept crossing my mind was be kind to yourself.I believe we go through so many thoughts a day, and we easily beat our selves up for what we don't do. Be Kind to yourself, always. Now get up and get moving!At 199.4 lbs this is what I'm working with ...Oh and this planet fitness looks way better than the ones near my house!!!I choose to love me as I am in the body I currently have. There's always room for improvement. And you've got to start somewhere. add me!