I am often frustrated with myself.
Frustrated that I said yes when I knew I should have said no. Frustrated that the scarcity mindset took over and I was desperate. Frustrated that it often seems I have the short end of the stick. Yet people say to stay positive. There are moments of happiness and I am thankful for them, but I tend to stress over the small stuff.
You see I started this blog in 2009 to document my journey to becoming an industrial designer.
Then I switched to posting about inspirational designs.
Then I switched to write about my day to day life.
Then I stopped writing altogether.
I am fairly certain that had I continued things would be different.
Today the blog still talks about my design journey and as you read this I am heading to an event that talks all about the journey designers have faced – especially in times of the great discontent that happens to overcome me when I feel that the work I am doing just isn’t fulfilling.
I’ve heard that many people have this feeling and maybe it comes from the knowledge that there is an opportunity to do otherwise.
Today I am going to see the interviews hosted by The Great Discontent Live with my accountability partner. It’s been great because I don’t have to go to event’s alone and I have been working on my strength’s like talking to random people and engaging in conversation.
I’ve binged on the podcasts and have heard some amazing stories of what people are doing with their creative lives. I’m hoping that the discontentment that I am experiencing pushes me to do something better, something greater, something beyond myself – even when others don’t think your dream is big enough.
While the journey is what I’ve decided to write about, it sure has its ups and downs. A few years from now I wish to say it was worth every bit.