Online courses 

I’ve enrolled in the course and I’m excited for what’s to come! 

I really enjoy learning and exploring, and challenging myself to new growth. Online courses are a great place to start. You have flexibility to take the classes around your schedule. So I jumped into the opportunity to take an onlinE class with the company I’d like to serve with through design in the near future. 

Fast Forward a week and a half and again, I’m contemplating and wondering – did I bite off more than I can chew? Did I take on more than I can handle? 

I think the answer is yes. I’m considering what I need to sacrifice – even if just momentarily in order to deliver well on the things I’ve set out to do. 

My current load: 

Full time job, two leadership positions requiring meeting times and networking, side projects in design and learning the ropes of business development, accountability meetings to ensure I’m doing what I set out to do (meet weekly and converse daily with another for that), spend time with my significant other, help out where I can at home, publishing daily on my personal blog, drawing daily – I’ve since stopped posting to instagram daily…

I’m sure the list can go on and on and on – but it’s up to me to draw the line. I have to be honest with myself, make time for the course I just dropped money to take. 

I think like many people I was really excited to start the new year and think of all the things I wanted to accomplish. 

I’m constantly reevaluating my goals to see if they are in line with what I’ve set out to do and the life I’m living. 

The courses so far for Insight to Inovation should take about 2 hours (at least that was last weeks assignment). Tonight I’m delving into the lesson and learning how to observe without judgment. 

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🤔🤔🤔 I’m not sure if I can share what I’ve learned along the way… I’ve always heard it’s better to ask for forgiveness and not for permission. 
 

Design, Legacy, Work

I love design because it’s a way to communicate visually. To capture ideas, tell captivating stories, push and pull on emotions – yet it can also be interpreted differently across nations. Be it design that is digital, formal, physical products or the illusions we create design is amazing.
When I was in college course we took ranged from fine art – the foundations of drawing and illustration, to digital art like Photoshop and illustrator, and 3D like solid works rhino, and CAD. My course load was often anywhere between 18 to 21 credits, along with working a part-time job. Luckily I managed to find the jobs that would allowed me to do additional work while in class – like note taking for the Deaf students, or checking people in at the front desk.
My internal struggle upon graduation was feeling that I didn’t know enough, that my portfolio wasn’t good enough and that there are people out there that’s better than me. fast forward five point something years and here I am working for a design company – getting paid as a professional yet the same feelings arise from time to time. You know, that moment you realize you submitted work that had a mistake? Your supervisor comes and points it out in a way that makes you feel small. Is this the way to approach mistakes at work? How do you recover from that? perhaps my feelings are displaced to begin with.
Lets rewind a little bit. I didn’t get my start as a paid designer until three years post graduating from college. once getting hired, I figured I would go in and learn from the experts. Yet what I’ve found is that the experts are so far removed from what its like being a beginner. they have been doing the work for ten plus years and cannot relate to the learning curves – or better yet the learning styles that people are accustomed to. The little nuances that should be communicated and taught are over looked. Or you’re thrown in to figure it out – by yourself – which then leads to mistakes, errors and being seen as incompetent. For certain that is one thing that I am not.
One of my biggest fears is being fired from my job. While I wasn’t “fired” I was let go from an agency without reason or cause. And when I did ask for a reason it was because work was slow. A few months had passed and they called me to go back. In my eyes and in my mouth the distaste had already set in. There was no reason for me to return and work with someone who would call me up while I am waiting outside to enter the work place and tell me, “we don’t need you today, work is slow. We’ll call you when it picks back up”.
Since then, it’s made me not want to work for or with agencies. Sure, at the time I made the decision to leave a part-time job. For me it felt soul sucking and brain numbing – it lacked mental stimuli and just wasn’t for me. The work was repetitive and EVERYTHING was spelled out. I don’t want to go no I can’t back to a place of feeling worthless, depressed, and have my bills piling up to the ceiling. (Yes I’m still salty about it).
You would think though that just as I would need to give a two weeks notice, there would be some type of warning, message, consideration even? for me to better prepare and make arrangements to search for another place of work. For many companies it’s a race to the bottom, survival of the fittest, and to be seen as the best.
I, for one am interested in doing work that matters. I want to do work that impacts people’s lives. I want others to see my life and feel inspired to engage ask questions of why I do what I do, how I’ve chosen to do it and that they see my life’s work as a reflection of my ultimate beliefs.
In my research, there are very few companies that are sincerely interested and invested in their employees lives and well-being. Some will say they want you to do your best work, and yes there are circumstances of which we cannot control in and out of work – but the ones that can, should actually follow through on implementing it. I don’t say that from the thinking of entitlement. I say that from the perspective of duty. An employer builds a business and hires employees. Why not invest in their lives to continue to get the best work from them. Otherwise its just a job, not a career – not a path of building a body of life’s work.
It is our duty to leave behind a legacy. Yet most of us are too fearful to jump that ship.

Proud To Be Me

This weekend I went to go see Hidden Figures. While I’m not a movie critic I’d highly suggest going out and seeing the movie. 

Too many times we – black women (and men) have been portrayed as less than. I have to admit, I didn’t know of these women prior to this movie coming out. It’s just a constant reminder that research is important, understanding who you are is important, and understanding dynamics of your history is important. 

A few things I liked in the movie: the characters still had a hint of sassy ness, beauty and brains. The attitude (as projected in the movie) was fair. And the women fought together for what they wanted. 

Today, too many times we think solely of ourselves and not the people in our communities. We allow our differences to shame us and envy being part of the common and familiar. 

It’s a beautiful thing to be different. It’s interesting, and in my world it’s what deepens conversations. 

Seeing that movie gave me a little more reason to hold my head high, and be proud to be me. 

Did you see the movie? Better yet did you go to the women’s march?