Burning Passions

I believe as a kid it was much easier to know what you liked verses what you didn’t like. Yet as you get older, there’s this filtration that happens. It’s almost like the older you get the more you forget how to play.

The conundrum of go to work to pay the bills syndrome comes up. I’ve heard over and over again to do the work you love from 5-9. For me it’d be more like 6-10.

The hardest thing is choosing the one thing and going along with it long enough to see what evolves of it. Like yesterday, I wrote about writing everyday – it started as a simple challenge and now I have an idea to stir things up. (A few actually)

Yet I’ve found it very difficult to want to get up at 5:00 am to do that¬†thing.¬†Be it exercise, meal prep, getting ready for the day – that resistance is one of the hardest things to over come.

In the past I would get up in the wee hours in the morning to complete a painting and now I just find it difficult to get started.

The idea of a burning passion is so falsified and there will always be something you don’t enjoy.

This is certainly a note to self.

What Do You Want to be when you grow up?

Remember that question as a kid? 

My answer ranged from being a teacher, to a business woman, to a librarian, to a biologist, to a Nurse.  One thing for certain is that we all have many interests. Yet for some odd reason we train our kids to believe they can only be one thing when they grow up. 

Life happens in seasons. 

I had a conversation the other day with some friends and they mentioned how someone we know seems to not know what they want to be. I believe it’s true – but are you what you want to be?

We often ask kids at an early age what they want to be. Not realizing they haven’t had a taste of had of the occupations in existence and the fact that job roles are constantly changing due to the advancement of technology. 

While this may not be everyone else’s experience, it’s often the case that children are in the classroom not really expereincing life or interacting with their surroundings. The most outdoor experience they get is a trip to the zoo, or freetime/recess out side. 

We need to encourage failed trials – like in science class. It’s like testing a theory to see if it works and if it doesn’t you make adjustments until it’s successful. 

As a creative person I’m

Encouraged to take risks, to try out iterations, and to draw and sketch and make models of products until successful. 

Even as a designer ther is still room to tinker and figure out what I’d like to be when I grow up. But I take a moment and ask you:

What do you want to be when you grow up? 


What does it mean to grow? What does it look like? How do we know when we are in the process of growth?

This thought came into passing when I was having a discussion with him and he mentioned it briefly and I’ve been wondering about what it means to grow. 

I remember when I was ina missions trip in Florida with the impact movement, we went to specific locations and helped to spread the gospel. One girl in particular left with a new meaning of growing pains. 

There must be some truth to this right? I mean let’s think about this: as a baby we cry for everything but we can’t really recall what it felt like to grow we Are aware that growing in new teeth hurt but we don’t remember the pain that accompanies it growing up. Not sure if the growth in our bones hurt but there’s gotta be something there too. 

While I don’t believe that growth equates pain, I do believe it requires some amount of discomfort and change or adaptation. It may also be met with some resistance. 

As o continue to grow into adult hood there are many adjustments and points of discomfort I face. I just need to remember growing pains are an indicator of growth.